Jess. 20. Recovering Anorexic. SATumblr (3.0; @jkm92)http://jkm92.tumblr.com/<p>Why am I so stupid? I ruin everything.  I cant deal with this shit anymore&#8230;I want out.  I&#8217;m alone and sad.  I don&#8217;t know what to do.  Hardly ate again today&#8230;and i&#8217;m starting excuses again at work as to why I don&#8217;t eat.  I can see this spiraling out of control again. And the thing is&#8230;i dont want to get better, I want to get worse.</p>http://jkm92.tumblr.com/post/45410339434http://jkm92.tumblr.com/post/45410339434Fri, 15 Mar 2013 05:23:17 -0400<p>Home alone for the next 3 days.  So far, I haven&#8217;t eaten for 3 days in a row then tonight i binged on a whole block of chocolate and 1/4 jar or peanut butter. Seriously, what the fuck. I actually feel like shit right now which is weird because I am in a new relationship and really like the guy.  I feel a relapse&#8230;big time.  I just want to stop eating and get back to the point where I cant feel anything anymore because at the moment I REALLY cant handle my thoughts.  Help.</p>http://jkm92.tumblr.com/post/45337460032http://jkm92.tumblr.com/post/45337460032Thu, 14 Mar 2013 06:50:00 -0400<p>Your right, the other hospital stay was life saving BUT it did get uncomfortable.  I was confined to a bed for 8 weeks and the food wasn’t that great.  The atmosphere could also be a bit negative due to nursing staff making random triggering comments because they don’t understand eating disorders.  Don’t get me wrong, the hospital stay was beneficial….but it was just really hard to keep motivated there.</p> <p>This new hospital is not specifically for people with eating disorders. They work with people with many issues.  I am able to go for walks to clear my head.  They also allow me to do yoga which I LOVE.  The group program is also a lot better than the other hospital.</p>http://jkm92.tumblr.com/post/36895954364http://jkm92.tumblr.com/post/36895954364Fri, 30 Nov 2012 15:23:08 -0500<img src="http://25.media.tumblr.com/tumblr_mcdj6mcyW11rgkovao1_500.jpg"/><br/><br/>http://jkm92.tumblr.com/post/36859040797http://jkm92.tumblr.com/post/36859040797Thu, 29 Nov 2012 23:02:31 -0500<img src="http://25.media.tumblr.com/tumblr_mea4bzDvPN1rvi979o1_500.jpg"/><br/><br/>http://jkm92.tumblr.com/post/36859020127http://jkm92.tumblr.com/post/36859020127Thu, 29 Nov 2012 23:02:12 -0500<img src="http://25.media.tumblr.com/tumblr_me88j60fvP1rwus5jo1_500.jpg"/><br/><br/>http://jkm92.tumblr.com/post/36858987640http://jkm92.tumblr.com/post/36858987640Thu, 29 Nov 2012 23:01:41 -0500<img src="http://24.media.tumblr.com/tumblr_me4n9x5nNF1qc2u00o1_500.jpg"/><br/><br/>http://jkm92.tumblr.com/post/36858924380http://jkm92.tumblr.com/post/36858924380Thu, 29 Nov 2012 23:00:44 -0500<img src="http://25.media.tumblr.com/tumblr_m7jdu7Dlj51r03etxo1_500.jpg"/><br/><br/>http://jkm92.tumblr.com/post/36858863149http://jkm92.tumblr.com/post/36858863149Thu, 29 Nov 2012 22:59:51 -0500<img src="http://25.media.tumblr.com/tumblr_mea1zsifAX1rivaino1_500.png"/><br/><br/><p><a href="http://naughtynightnurse.tumblr.com/post/36848601498/well-potassium-to-you-too" class="tumblr_blog">naughtynightnurse</a>:</p> <blockquote><p>Well Potassium to you too!</p></blockquote>http://jkm92.tumblr.com/post/36858554589http://jkm92.tumblr.com/post/36858554589Thu, 29 Nov 2012 22:55:10 -0500<img src="http://25.media.tumblr.com/tumblr_mea6rs9fDd1rvi979o1_500.jpg"/><br/><br/>http://jkm92.tumblr.com/post/36858371138http://jkm92.tumblr.com/post/36858371138Thu, 29 Nov 2012 22:52:27 -0500<img src="http://24.media.tumblr.com/tumblr_mc7pkeGXTN1qd3d65o1_500.jpg"/><br/><br/>http://jkm92.tumblr.com/post/36858286907http://jkm92.tumblr.com/post/36858286907Thu, 29 Nov 2012 22:51:14 -0500<img src="http://25.media.tumblr.com/tumblr_mbnmfaGHBw1rb0oxpo1_500.jpg"/><br/><br/><p><a href="http://fightthewhispers.tumblr.com/post/36857172149/hehe" class="tumblr_blog">fightthewhispers</a>:</p> <blockquote><p>hehe :)</p></blockquote>http://jkm92.tumblr.com/post/36858277092http://jkm92.tumblr.com/post/36858277092Thu, 29 Nov 2012 22:51:05 -0500<img src="http://25.media.tumblr.com/tumblr_m966cmQlSC1rw9cgto1_500.jpg"/><br/><br/>http://jkm92.tumblr.com/post/36858269318http://jkm92.tumblr.com/post/36858269318Thu, 29 Nov 2012 22:50:59 -0500<img src="http://25.media.tumblr.com/tumblr_mc6kd9iiNf1qf1498o1_r3_500.jpg"/><br/><br/>http://jkm92.tumblr.com/post/36858262767http://jkm92.tumblr.com/post/36858262767Thu, 29 Nov 2012 22:50:53 -0500<img src="http://25.media.tumblr.com/tumblr_mb0vewId7H1qgc5rxo1_500.jpg"/><br/><br/>http://jkm92.tumblr.com/post/36858211909http://jkm92.tumblr.com/post/36858211909Thu, 29 Nov 2012 22:50:08 -0500<img src="http://25.media.tumblr.com/tumblr_mdp91q0DWE1qf1498o1_500.jpg"/><br/><br/>http://jkm92.tumblr.com/post/36858201912http://jkm92.tumblr.com/post/36858201912Thu, 29 Nov 2012 22:49:59 -0500<img src="http://25.media.tumblr.com/tumblr_mazzx7Bjsk1qgc5rxo1_500.jpg"/><br/><br/>http://jkm92.tumblr.com/post/36858185166http://jkm92.tumblr.com/post/36858185166Thu, 29 Nov 2012 22:49:45 -0500<p>When you accidentally buy full sugar cordial instead of sugar free cordial.</p> <p>Oh well, ED - just deal with it. It tastes just as good, if not BETTER then sugar free cordial anyway.</p>http://jkm92.tumblr.com/post/36858073397http://jkm92.tumblr.com/post/36858073397Thu, 29 Nov 2012 22:48:08 -0500eating disordereating disorder recoveryrecoverycordialanorexiabulimia<img src="http://25.media.tumblr.com/tumblr_mdf430gt2j1qe7mxjo1_500.png"/><br/><br/>http://jkm92.tumblr.com/post/36734137775http://jkm92.tumblr.com/post/36734137775Wed, 28 Nov 2012 07:20:56 -0500<img src="http://24.media.tumblr.com/tumblr_mchdyv4h7z1rucbymo1_500.jpg"/><br/><br/>http://jkm92.tumblr.com/post/36734131349http://jkm92.tumblr.com/post/36734131349Wed, 28 Nov 2012 07:20:49 -0500